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| 05:54am 29/12/2006 |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY,DESIREE!!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I hope you have an amazing day!!!
ENJOY!
Love,
Alex |
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| Oh, life...how foolish you are... |
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| 02:11am 11/12/2006 |
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mood:  drained
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Hey folks,
I know it's been awhile since I've been online, but haven't I always had a tendency to drop off the face of the earth while at school or engrossed in something large?...like school, that is. Anyway, in case you were wondering, here's a mini-update of my life. I don't exactly remember when the last time was that I updated, but I spent this semester working really hard...only partied a handful of times. I didn't even go to any house parties, except one that I left almost as soon as I got there. Lisa and I are still together...YAY!!!! It's been seven months now, and we made the mistake of joking around and saying we were engaged on Facebook. So, someone sent her a congratulations message on her phone. God, we're such assholes. Anyway, let's see...I'm still working at the climbing wall. Always a joy...and as a result of climbing, I've gained another ten pounds. Oh, yay to gaining weight! I did a little Christmas shopping yesterday...although, I haven't managed to save any money this year...ugggghhhh. I was butchered by some critics for my landscape studio class...oh, critics...they shall always exist. I'm now contemplating three internships for the summer...each in completely different areas...San Diego, Pasadena, and Smith campus. Soooo...debating. I'd love to do the one at Smith, but I really don't want to be in Massachusetts any longer than I have to. I suppose that is the only REAL update I have. The novelty of being away from home has really worn off and I'm ready to come home. I still love school, but the drama on campus combined with the drama at home makes me really want to just be home with my family. I'd transfer if I could, so I could be with my family, but that would just be silly since I'm not going to find a better education close to home that I wouldn't be miserable at. But it's a little tough being away from home when the fam has been going through the worst drama it's ever been in as long as I've been alive. I was really happy to be home for Thanksgiving, but at the same time, I was pretty upset that I didn't get to see some of my family, but I guess I've just got to wake up and realize everyone's growing up and doing their own thing. In that case, the only change I could say there's been in my character this year is that I've become more of a hermit. Last year, I was really social and partied constantly...had a huge circle of friends who I hung out with. This year, I still have all the friends, but I just don't take that time to see them. They've invited me to so many events, but I just don't ever feel like leaving. Maybe I'm already entering into my mode of detaching myself from them so it's not as hard when I never get to see them again, because let's face it...once I graduate, I'm never coming back here until my reunion. As much as I love Smith, I'm done with it and want to go home. Okay, fine, I'll admit it, I've been homesick all year. This year has pretty much sucked balls, but not really. It's actually treated me pretty well, I just haven't been as happy. At least I've practiced healthier behavior...I haven't gotten myself into any dangerous situations nor done anything dangerous. The extent of my depression I've solved with napping and playing computer games. My most recent obsession is Talladega Nights. Oh, and I bombed my last jazz concert ever...now I'm THAT girl who messed up at the recital who everyone always remembers. Oh, yeah...that's me! Anyway, I love you guys, and miss you. Some of you, I need so see more often...as in...I live two minutes away and just never take the time to see. Dana...we need to get together one of these days!! So, I love y'all and thanks for putting up with my bullshit this year. I'll be home soon. |
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| Itchy again |
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| 11:52am 29/09/2006 |
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I've decided that my body is just gonna be perpetually itchy for the rest of the semester. I've been having an allergic reaction to something since Sunday...I'm guessing Lisa's sheets/clothing detergent. That was fun to explain to my mom though..."Ummm...mom, I think I'm allergic to Lisa's sheets." "Lisa's sheets? Oh, are you back together? That's great!!" And then awkward silence. But still...we changed her detergent, but now she doesn't like it cause she keeps smelling herself and thinking I'm nearby, which is cute. She said she couldn't focus in class cause she kept smelling her clothes. But anyway, I've got a nice rash all over...AGAIN!!!!! In the same places pretty much that I had my poison ivy, but this time it's worse on my arms. It's not spreading, since it started off everywhere. But if it's not gone in another weekish...I'll call health services. |
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| Take Two |
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| 12:50pm 24/09/2006 |
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mood:  cheerful
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So, I went to Amherst last night to go get drunk and party...make out with boys, whatever. It didn't work. By the time I got there, I was pretty much sobered up and not feelin' the whole atmosphere. So, I took the next bus back and talked to Lisa. We worked out our problems and now we're back together. But can I first say a FUCK YOU to mini-feed, because we were both getting sympathy looks from our housemmates all day. And I had some random person on the bus talk to me and ask me about my break up. I was thinking..."who are you, and why do you know who I am?" So, yeah, she confessed to having facebook stalked me, it was kinda weird...but maybe if I meet her when it's under less weird and intrusive circumstances, I'll be less confused. But yay...I'm not single anymore, and now I can focus on my work again! |
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| Electric Six!!!!! |
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| 12:21am 18/09/2006 |
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mood: chipper music: Electric Six-Dance Epidemic
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I just had the most amazing time EVER at Electric Six!!!!! The opening band was Aberdeen City...typical like rock...loud...and the guitarist was seriously on something, and almost knocked down the keyboards. He also stopped playing for awhile and talked to his guitar...huh??? Anyway...soooo...Kate, Amber and I made really awesome shirts...I'm not sure if I'd already updated as to what they said, but in case you're curious, again... Kate's said "STOP..." on front and "Continue" in the back. Amber's said "The ImpostOR" and mine had a little silhouette of Lincoln on the front and "Girl! I wanna take you to a gay bar" on the back. Oh, I think I DID post about this. Anyway, we stood right up front, as in, I had my purse sitting on the stage while we danced. It was absolutely amazing!! They were great entertainers...as in Dick Valentine was crazy...doing weird dances, doing pushups, situps, really random stuff. And he pulled me up onto stage twice!!! It was absolutely incredible. They played all the good ones (and gave Amber their playlist). Gay Bar, Improper Dancing, I Sell the Drugs, Dance Epidemic, Danger! High Voltage, etc...etc...it went on forever, and was worth every second. And after, we hung around and each one signed our shirts, and we talked to the all for awhile. The drummer was the nicest guy...he was the only one who we didn't feel we were bothering him, but they were all really gracious about our enthusiasm, and liked our shirts. This was definitely a really good choice for my first concert that I wasn't accompanied, sorta speak, by my parents. If you can ever see Electric Six in concert, DO IT!! They know how to put on a show. And I have a bunch of pictures, but since I'm inept at technology, I'll just hope Marina can fix it! Maybe...!!!! I posted them all on photobucket...ajulius...and Marina, you know my password. So, if you wanna look at them, they're there. |
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| 02:29am 15/09/2006 |
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Has anybody ever explored the idea of pansexuality before? |
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| Poison Ivy pics |
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| 02:50am 13/09/2006 |
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mood: exhausted
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I went to health services today, demanded a pill or injection, and alas, I'm on Prednisone for the next two weeks. But I decided to take some pictures before the blisters started healing. So, if you feel like looking at how disgusting I look right now, check it out!
( Poison Ivy Suxor )
Sorry, no pictures of where I've got spots in more inappropriate spots on my body
Oh, and the Prednisone is supposed to make me restless or hyper...I've had so much energy today...what a change!
Edit: haxored lol |
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| Poison Ivy |
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| 10:45am 12/09/2006 |
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So, had a minor breakdown yesterday with my freakin' poison ivy and cold. Luckily my friends were nearby to comfort me. I'm not stressed...especially since school's barely started, but it's difficult balancing the schoolwork with applying medicine, getting little sleep for scratching purposes, and always having to be alert about not touching people or myself. I'm going to health services again today for some stronger medicine. They told me they'd only give me strong stuff if it was on my face or in my groin. Well, it's getting dangerously close to my groin, as in, I've only got about an inch or two to spare, and I'm not waiting for it to get there. I think unless they give me acid, I'm not gonna accept anything topical...I want a pill or an injection. My legs look like shit, especially, and now it's also spread to my back. I'd normally think, well, maybe it's going away, but I'm seeing new blisters every day, which means it's not getting any better. And I need to start getting better nights of sleep and not having to shower at 4 in the morning to reapply medicine. Plus, taking more Benadryl at 4am makes me groggy in the mornings when I'm supposed to be alert for class. Uck...wish me and my groin luck! |
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| school thus far |
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| 02:13am 10/09/2006 |
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mood:  restless
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Hey folks...I know it's been awhile, but I've been pre-occupied with life. I left for Boston on the 22nd of August. Lisa and I had a great time doing the Freedom Trail and hiking through New Hampshire. I left for campus on the 27th, and started training for the Appalachian Trail. I was on the trail from the 29th to the 31st. It was the hardest trip of the three, as we covered 17 miles in that time. When I got back, I moved into Lamont and painted my room. Now I'm in the first weekend following the start of school. Convocation was amazing, as usual...I went as one of the lullabye girls in munchkin land (our theme was Somewhere Over the Rainbow). I wore a tutu with pink little boy shorts underwear...ballet shoes, and I painted a pink leotard on my torso. And did glitter nipples!
Most recent update...I'm sick...yay! I was close to recovering, but then when I woke up, I was sick again...argh...and, I have a pretty nice case of poison ivy that's taken over my entire body. I've got it on my back, torso, arms, and mostly on my legs and feet. It's pretty attractive having giant oozing blisters on my legs and feet. The rest just looks like a rash.
And lastly, my schedule is pretty much figured out. I've got a landscape bio class and lab, an intro to landscape studies, a landscape art studio, yiddish, pilates, jazz piano lessons, and maybe scuba diving. Scuba is the only tentative one left. So, there ya go, my schedule for this year. Now I just need to wait for my benadryl to kick in so I can go to sleep without scratching! Fucking poison ivy! |
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| 03:27pm 15/08/2006 |
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There's a helicopter flying around our neighborhood right now and I'm curious as to why? Accident? Chase? News? Hmmmmm... |
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| 02:33am 15/08/2006 |
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mood: happy
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Yet another successful day in my house. Let's see...I finally finished all the gardening that needed to be done. THREE DAYS!!!! of gardening, that is. And I made Jew flashcards for my Yiddish class. I apparently need to know the Hebrew alphabet before starting the class...if that means being familiar with it or actually know it, I don't know...but let's hope he just wants us to recognize the scribbles. Anyway, I also practiced piano while listening to Fiddler on the Roof on TV. Watched the Court Jester with Danny Kaye. Watched The Closer. Showered. Made a freakin' quesadilla! And managed to avoid my phone for another day. How come whenever I have my phone on me all day, anticipating a call, nobody calls. But when I'm away from my phone all day, I get five calls, and then all those people get mad at me for not picking up, attesting to the fact that they'll never call me again cause I never pick up my phone. Damn you people!!! Actually, it was only one person who called me five times. Oh, and a telemarketer. Got another issue of Garden Design today...yay!! Started thinking about packing...maybe...NOT! I've been thinking about what I've gotta do on my first day back in Northampton...gotta go to the gym, get my keys, move in but can't unpack unless I'm in my permanent housing, go downtown, find a job, walk to the quad for dinner, sleep and wake up early for my 9am training. YAY for training. Speaking of training, I've been watching a lot of Workout on Bravo, and first off...Jackie is really hot. But second, I REALLY wanna find out how to discipline myself with exercise. My goal is to walk in on my first day of modeling again, which will be in November, and have them all be like...woah...she works out. Cause someone asked me that last semester..."do you work out??" And it felt really good hearing that. I don't think I'd hear that now, but I wanna hear it again, so, that's my goal, to have someone ask me that again. Preferably not followed by "...ever??" Okay, that's my rant for the night...gotta go crap and then sleep cause I've gotta go to the eye doc in the morning so they can tell me I've got 20/10 vision and question why I'm even there. Alas, the tribulations of life...god, I love my life right now. |
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| family meeting |
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| 09:35am 12/08/2006 |
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mood:  uncomfortable
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There's a family meeting going on right now in our kitchen...with plenty of people who hate each other. Seems sufficiently awkward enough. I think I'll avoid it. |
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| 04:36am 07/08/2006 |
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mood:  frustrated
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it just occurred to me yesterday how soon it is that I'll be leaving. I'm going to San Diego this week to visit familia...which brings me to next weekend. Family meeting...ewwwww. And then, my last week will be spent doing all the chores my dad wants done before I leave...lots of planting, cleaning the grout in the kitchen, going plant shopping with my mom...ugh. I told them that I didn't want to spend my last week here doing slave labor, but alas, my mom was too lazy to go plant shopping till now. So much for getting together with friends and family before I leave. Oh yeah, and I'm spending my very last day here at a Smith gathering for incoming freshmen...I love that kinda shit, except, on my last day? ARGH...I'm a tad bit bitter at the moment.
Updates for the day: went running/walking on the beach today with my cousin Mark. On our walk back to our towels, there was a whole crowd of people because some woman lost her kid in the ocean, so there was a helicopter, ambulance, boat, divers, etc. searching. We were both kinda thinking that the kid ran off and is wondering what everyone's looking at. But here's to wishful thinking. It's weird actually seeing people in person, versus on TV, the typical NEWS shot of the weeping mother. Sad...
On a higher note...I started and finished tiling my parents' bathroom. They love it, which makes me happy. Itta sucked if they hated it after 7 hours of labor. Why am I still awake? I got not sleep all day, I was exhausted all day...I exercised, twice, and yet I'm still awake. BASTARD!
And lastly, I tweeked my foot at the beach, I think, cause it hurts like it did when I hurt it back at work when I fell at the wall. Whenever I resprain my right foot, it's always the ankle. But on the left foot, where it is now, it's always a straining pain on top of my foot. This had better go away before I leave to hike the Appalachian Trail. |
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| Hopes for the future |
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| 05:11am 06/08/2006 |
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mood:  determined
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It appears as though I'm the worst person ever at finding internships, but at least I've finally figured out what I want, and then I'll work off that. For next summer, my hope is to get a job/internship at an accredited (botanical) garden, perhaps the Biltmore Estate, Chicago Botanical Garden, etc. And then in the summer after my junior year, my dream of all dreams would be if I could get a job/internship at Kew Botanical Garden in London. It's 300 acres of sooooo many plants, it's ridiculous. Working there would be like a politics major working at the White House. It's like every garden's inspiration for their own. Some of the Smith Botanical Garden came from inspirations from the Kew Garden. So, I figure with two good internships and a degree from Smith on the Dean's List (if I can stay on it), I'd be writing myself a ticket to any grad program. Here's to hoping! And to hoping I can find a freakin' internship.
P.S. I've never put "determined" as my mood before, but the kitty sure is cute! |
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| Apparently not drugged enough |
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| 03:16pm 04/08/2006 |
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So we got a call from the place that my nana's at. Apparently she put someone in the hospital. A man walked into her room, all disoriented, and it freaked her out. So I guess she scratched him or something and they had to send him to the hospital. But then again, when you're in yor 80s/90s, a papercut can put you in the hospital in case you bleed out. Anyway, yeah...she's still insane |
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| 03:47am 04/08/2006 |
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went to REI today...it maked me really excited that people apparently no longer see me as a silly teenage girl. Some men overheard me talking to a worker there about climbing, and they immediately came up to give me suggestions about where to climb and who to climb with and such. YAY...people don't think I'm 12 anymore, except my friend's dad who thinks I'm like 14. |
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| random shit cause I'm bored |
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| 03:41pm 03/08/2006 |
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mood:  bored music: Take the 'A' Train
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bored...bored...bored...I should go running but that takes work...sooooo not in the mood. I'm expecting a call one of these days from my cousin to go hiking. Must get back into shape before hiking the Appalachian trail. So, I'm leaving for Mass. on the 21st of August. Anybody who thinks they're gonna miss me, come say hi!!! I had a nightmare last night that combined teachers, campuses, students, etc. with elementary, high school and college. It was weird. And why does it always take an hour to get anywhere by foot in your dreams when it should take like 4 minutes? Hey...I can finally get my hair into a ponytail, and now my mom wants me to go get it trimmed...NOOOOOO!!!!!! I hate short hair...bastards. |
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| 04:20am 02/08/2006 |
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Happy 4:20 |
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| 03:39am 02/08/2006 |
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mood: aggravated
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I think I may have a seizure if I have to keep staring at Kyle's morphed flashing face for another minute...AHHHHHHH!!!! Marina, I HATE YOU!!!!! |
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| 03:27am 02/08/2006 |
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mood:  awake
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Yes, this entry shall pain most people to read...most educated people...but here's the truth...reading is just not my thing. I try sooo hard to get into books, but half the time, once I get to page 100, I put it down and pick a new one. I did that with Persuasion because I just didn't get what was going on. And I finally just gave up on The Devil Wears Prada. Now my mom wants me to try The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella. It doesn't seem like my kind of book, but I'm gonna go for it because it's rare that my mom and I ever read the same book, considering that my mom almost exclusively reads magazines and catalogs. Anyway, on my list are the rest of the David Sedaris books Marina lent me, The Road from Coorain, Brunelleschi's Dome, Five People You Meet in Heaven, Dolores Clairborne, The Origin of Species and many others. Here's to hoping I finish even half of these in my lifetime. Yay to being an illiterate asshole. |
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